Officially reentering the fray of working on music, it honestly feels like a homecoming. Gothic music as “Red in Obscura” and extreme black metal as “VVolven” offer me a couple of powerful outlets for the darkness inside me. I can say I haven’t recorded black metal since I was sixteen years old in the mid-90s…
Tag: death
First holiday since dad’s passing
We just celebrated our first holiday since dad’s passing and it was beautiful, fun, and bittersweet. Although I am a Jew, I still celebrate Easter with my mother, not necessarily for the religious aspects, but for the familial bonds and so she can see her grandkids. My uncles Bill and Bob were there, tons of…
After the funeral
This past Saturday was my dad’s funeral, just two days ago and I’ve been processing everything since. The funeral was very nice and the Pastor did a far better job than I expected, but he’d met my dad a few times in the past. The anecdotes about my dad were spot on and helped make…
Grieving when one cannot
My dad died one week ago, through it I have had to find the strength to stay calm and hold myself together for the sake of my family. My wife, my four kids, my mother, my uncles, I am holding strong for them and while it is a tremendous weight to bear, I gladly will…
My fallen hero
Yesterday I received the most difficult news of my life, at 1:30 am EST my father passed away. A few days ago I made a post about him and his struggle to survive over the last several months in the hospital, but he has lost the battle. He raised me to be kind, caring, to…
Death and dying
The situation I grew up without a father, but my mom married a man who was a family friend when I was 11 years old and he immediately set about to teach me and help raise me. This man was a father to me, regardless of blood ties and he showed me how to be…