First holiday since dad’s passing

We just celebrated our first holiday since dad’s passing and it was beautiful, fun, and bittersweet. Although I am a Jew, I still celebrate Easter with my mother, not necessarily for the religious aspects, but for the familial bonds and so she can see her grandkids. My uncles Bill and Bob were there, tons of food, tons of candy, and because we never celebrated Christmas because my dad was in the hospital and later passed away, we exchanged gifts. It’s a Chreaster! 

It was the first holiday since dad’s passing and his absence was felt by us all, even while having a good time being together. My mom also gave me dad’s Beatles records and they are the same exact albums that I grew up listening to with him, so when I got them home and listened, so much emotion, both joy and sadness, flooded my heart. So, I have been trying to process everything, how it was such a great time, tons of love, laughs, and the like, but someone was missing, someone who was a big part of all of our lives. Each holiday we celebrate, I know dad will be there in spirit, but his physical presence is greatly missed, his humor, his laugh, his ability to make everything hilarious. 

Holidays are for the family to come together, this is the first year ours was noticeably missing a member and I’m not entirely sure how to deal with that. Dad would want us to come together and celebrate, he’d want us to have a good time, so that is what we’ll continue to do, in his honor and name. 


It is Christmas eve 2020 and tomorrow is the first pandemic Christmas most of us have ever experienced. Many families and friends will not be able to gather as they normally would have, and everything and everyone is held at the mercy of this virus. Though we may all be separated, kept away from one another out of fear of this illness, we are not apart. 

The spirit of giving is alive and well, the spirit of love and connection with those we love is still as strong as ever. Phones will be buzzing, video chats and calls, love will still be spread, hearts will still touch, even when the body cannot. This holiday season has been, is very different, but the love, caring, and connection amongst one another is still there. 

Covid-19 may have dealt the world a horrific blow, it may have taken many from us, sickened even more, but it will not win. So long as we cling to that which matters most; family, friends, love, giving of ourselves to others, this sickness will not win!


I myself had Covid-19 in early March of this year, many of my friends had it, several passed away and will never be forgotten. This year we can honor their memories, we can honor all of their memories, by giving to others, loving one another, and celebrating the season the best we can. Whether or not we are together or far, our hearts are as close as ever.

I can promise you this, the saying, “it’s always darkest before the dawn,” stands as adamant truth. The darkness we’ve all been dealt is finite, it has an end, and the end is near for this horrible illness, I can assure you as much. 

Peace, joy, and love to all of you…
Merry Christmas!